I have experienced a lot of pain in my short span of life. I have fought through so much to become the woman I am today. I am a little broken. Maybe even a little irreparable. No. I stand corrected. I was a little broken. I thought I was irreparable. Two years was how long it took for me to notice him. He was around for two years, but never really stayed long enough for me to notice. This year he decided to linger in my life. I noticed him. I just did not care enough to say anything. I started acknowledging him. Although I noticed him before, I did not converse with him as much as I do now. It was unexpected. We started talking. I started noticing. I noticed the way he spoke about other people and other things. He spoke so kindly of other people and other things. I noticed the way he spoke of himself. Shy and humble, but confident enough in himself. I ...

Kau hilang tanpa sebab. Kau biarkan aku tergantung. Aku menanggung rindu. Aku menanggung cinta. Kau pergi membawa hati aku. Kau langsung tidak rasa bersalah. 9 tahun kita mengenali kau buang macam tu saja. Aku ni tak bermakna ke bagi kau?

what happens when someone that is everything to you, leaves ? you are then left with nothing .

I am the type of person that speaks her mind. I say things right when I feel them. When I'm angry. When I'm sad. When I'm happy. When I'm annoyed. I say them. Because people can tell from my face what I'm feeling. I don't hide my feelings very well. "I love you." "I hate you." "I miss you." "Shut up. You're annoying." But, when I say something, as much as it will hurt you, you just have to listen. You have to pay attention to what I have to say. That's the only time I am honest about how I feel. The only time I am honest about how I feel is when I blurt them. I am the most honest person when I am overwhelmed with deep emotions. If I have ever blurted out my feelings to you and you just kept quiet and paid attention, all I have to say is; Thank you. Thank you so much for taking my words seriously. Thank you so much for listening. I a...

It's that easy isn't it? A person cheats and the other decides to leave. At that moment, the cheater doesn't think about how the things they did will affect the others around them. I know they say that people can change with time. People can change when you make them realize what they will lose. One mistake and we forget everything good about that person. But a cheater, is a cheater. They do it once, they're bound to do it again... Right? It makes you wonder... It's that easy isn't it? To let go of love? To throw away everything for temporary pleasure? It's that easy. Isn't it?

Pada hari ini, 57 tahun yang lalu, kau berjaya dibebaskan daripada belenggu penjajah. Pada hari ini, 57 tahun yang lalu, kau telah mencipta sejarah. Pada hari ini, 57 tahun yang lalu, kau mula bangkit dengan sendiri tanpa pertolongan anasir luar. Pada hari ini, 57 tahun yang lalu, kau merdeka. Alhamdulillah. Selamat Hari Kemerdekaan yang ke-57, Malaysia. Tanah tumpahnya darahku.

fuck off. don't look for me anymore. you come and go as you please. no more. go. go forever. don't come back.