Lost.

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I stayed away so that you can have the best version of me.
I stayed away so i don’t burden you with my issues.

I stayed away to avoid making you sad to see me like this
but as soon as I was ready to embrace us again,
you left for someone else.

Tell me what do I do with this heart that I wear on my sleeve?
What do I do with this heart I tried so hard to piece together again?

How could you so quickly turn against the things you say?
How could you so quickly let go of the hope you had been giving me all this while?

You said you will never let go but you did.
You said you will be here for me but you’re not.
You promised to stay by my side, to love me forever but now you’re promising it to someone else.

Every glimmer of hope you gave me just a few months ago is gone.
Do you know the pain I feel?
I’m back to square one without you.

& I swear, I have no will to live anymore.

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